Killing those “You’re not good enough” messages…
Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night with my mind going 100 miles an hour.
It was the voice in my head that sometimes plagues me. It said to me, “Amy… you are not good enough. You aren’t trying hard enough to make the studio more successful.”
As much as I tried to be the observer and stay unattached to these thoughts, this wasn’t going away. When I awoke from a fitful sleep to start my day, the feeling of defeat hadn’t lifted.
Stopping through Starbucks to pick up my usual hot tea, I read a poster on the community board about a woman that is fighting for her life. This beautiful woman had lost her husband, is raising two teenagers by herself, is caring for her mother who has Alzheimer’s disease, AND she is battling breast cancer.
Her story left me feeling ashamed and sad. How dare I feel defeated. What was I thinking?
I immediately thanked God for my health, my family, the shelter and food He has provided me. I thanked Him for the students that walk through the door of the studio each day! How can I possibly feel defeat when I know in my heart that God is always by my side?
Today… this will be my prayer. As I go out and teach, I go without expectation, but hope that just somehow my words will touch the heart of some individual to let them know that they are beautifully and wonderfully made by our Father above. I hope that my light shines bright so that I might have a positive impact on their lives.